26 Weeks...14 weeks to go! Yipee!!

I am so happy to be getting closer and closer to the end. And in a few weeks, I'll be lucky enough to say that I am in my third trimester, but not yet. All in due time. As I count up the weeks, I also do the count down which would be 14 weeks to go. I'm so excited!!

On a side note, I've been having a lot of anxiety, related to a few things and people. But I am attributing it to hormones but I don't necessarily thinks that is all it is. I just keep having these moments of anger; angry at the way people are treated or I am treated. Feeling like I am being taken advantage of and then I start to feel like no one even cares or wants me around. So then all of the makes me angry. I am starting to really think I need counseling. I know counseling isn't bad and I put thought into it a few months ago when I had anxiety and my PTSD got pretty worrisome before. But more now, it feels like things are out of control and I need to get a handle on them. It might just be my OCD but I think my PTSD is going out of control again. Or I am just going out of control emotionally, which makes OCD and PTSD go off the track. I need to get things in check. I am really getting tired of hiding my panic attacks and my nightmares. I have been able to change my mindset to a more optimistic view point and I think that may be some of it, I am surrounded by negative people. No one sees the good, no one is thankful. So when these people make comments that are negative, I usually brush them off or let them boil inside me. But I keep it to myself, another bad habit of mine. I think this is the hardest things I struggle with and being a wellness coach I want to help other people with these types of issues. Knowing what I should do, face that big green monster in the closet, I just can't do it. The anxiety and fear build up. Afraid of the worst all the time, thankfully not involving this pregnancy directly. But all these emotions and not knowing how to handle them, feeling like I am alone, etc. is just starting to bother me more and more. I feel like I am at a loss. Another reason to be excited about counting down to the baby coming. The hormones getting back in check.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I am headed getting my glucose screening done, fun!

24 weeks and going strong

  24 weeks, can you believe it? I can't! Its only 16 weeks to go. Wow!! I really can't believe I have made it this far, there have been moments and days where I felt like I couldn't go on. But here I am, writing about it and realizing time it going by and how quickly it does pass. We take for granted the time we have and just try to get through things to move on to the next. Its my new goal to try to enjoy this experience, after all, it will be the last time I am ever pregnant. So here's to staying optimistic!!

  My new goal is to defy the si joint dysfunction, exercise more and try to eat more healthy. I have gained more weight then I wanted and with 16 more weeks to go, that also means I should put on 16 more lbs, a pound a week. I do not wish for that to happen, at least not 16 lbs. I want the baby to gain the weight, not my thighs. So I am going to trying to switch my family, ALL of them, to eating healthier. Not just so I can watch my weight gain but so they all can benefit and be healthier too. Our menu this week consists of more lean mean like grilled chicken, pulled pork. and whole wheat homemade pizza. My goal is to not only eat better but to eat less take out. It appears that a majority of our spare money goes to unhealthy take out...well unless is it sushi and miso soup. I don't think that is ever a waste of money. But it is also my goal to make more scratch made snacks to match my pregnancy cravings like homemade nachos and homemade potato skins. 

  On another note, our four year old is improving with his speech and development. Though not as much as I personally would like, but baby steps right? As some of you may know, it has been determined that he is on a 2-3 year developmental age level in most things. But as each day passes, I see him improve. We are working mostly on sounding out his words right now. I really wish we could potty train but he isn't ready. When it comes to potty training I have the view of the old saying, You can take a horse to water but you can't make the horse drink. Well this saying definitely applies to our 2 1/2 year old and 4 year old. Speaking of our little princess, as each day passes she becomes more and more defiant and strong willed. But as each day she goes down this path, I also become more strong willed. I can definitely tell you, she inherited this trait from me. 

  I hope everyone has a great autumn weekend and I hope everyone gets family time together.

22 Weeks and Holidays

  The joys of being 22 weeks pregnant is realizing that even though I am half way through, I still have a long way to go, but do I? Expecting our new addition the beginning of February has yet to hit me until last night when I did this BabyCenter due date thing. You put in the first day of your last period, and it gives you your estimated due date. But what really hit me was how they broke it down to months and gave you dates. To actually see how far along I would and what the dates would be. Like, apparently on January 11, 2013 I will be 37 weeks (15 weeks away!!) which means our baby will be full term. Oh great you might think, but NO! This means that anytime after this date could be go time, my official due date is February 1, 2013. Though this might make you think, of that is forever away but here is reality for you. 

• Halloween is 28 days away (October 31st)
• Election Day is 34 days away (November 6th)
• Thanksgiving is 50 days away (November 22nd)
• Christmas is 83 days away (December 25th)

  Need I say more? That is three major holidays in less than 100 days!! But do you realize how many weeks that is? I'm not doing the math for you but in reality, it really isn't that many. So its time to get to saving money, shopping, redecorating and making my own maternity clothes...and "enjoying" the holidays.