26 Weeks...14 weeks to go! Yipee!!

I am so happy to be getting closer and closer to the end. And in a few weeks, I'll be lucky enough to say that I am in my third trimester, but not yet. All in due time. As I count up the weeks, I also do the count down which would be 14 weeks to go. I'm so excited!!

On a side note, I've been having a lot of anxiety, related to a few things and people. But I am attributing it to hormones but I don't necessarily thinks that is all it is. I just keep having these moments of anger; angry at the way people are treated or I am treated. Feeling like I am being taken advantage of and then I start to feel like no one even cares or wants me around. So then all of the makes me angry. I am starting to really think I need counseling. I know counseling isn't bad and I put thought into it a few months ago when I had anxiety and my PTSD got pretty worrisome before. But more now, it feels like things are out of control and I need to get a handle on them. It might just be my OCD but I think my PTSD is going out of control again. Or I am just going out of control emotionally, which makes OCD and PTSD go off the track. I need to get things in check. I am really getting tired of hiding my panic attacks and my nightmares. I have been able to change my mindset to a more optimistic view point and I think that may be some of it, I am surrounded by negative people. No one sees the good, no one is thankful. So when these people make comments that are negative, I usually brush them off or let them boil inside me. But I keep it to myself, another bad habit of mine. I think this is the hardest things I struggle with and being a wellness coach I want to help other people with these types of issues. Knowing what I should do, face that big green monster in the closet, I just can't do it. The anxiety and fear build up. Afraid of the worst all the time, thankfully not involving this pregnancy directly. But all these emotions and not knowing how to handle them, feeling like I am alone, etc. is just starting to bother me more and more. I feel like I am at a loss. Another reason to be excited about counting down to the baby coming. The hormones getting back in check.

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I am headed getting my glucose screening done, fun!